New Chapter

So, today I began a new chapter in my life...college. I can't exactly say that I love it yet but it is a lot better than primary education. It's interesting to find so many people who share some of the same concepts and beliefs as yourself. And it is also interesting to see how many are the complete opposite of you. I don't quite feel like a new chapter has begun but I am starting to feel some change. I terribly miss my room and my family and home cooked meals. But I am liking the freedom of kind of just doing whatever I feel like. Going where I want. And eatinng what I want. I know I will soon overcome the home sickness, but until then..I'll have to cope with what's been given to me.

I thank the lord for everything that he has done and for getting me here so far. Now I pray for you to make me even more successful.

Truly,
Nitasha

Such High Demands

So, today I learned a very valuable lesson. Although the incident that taught me the lesson wasn't very, hm...what should I call it, very reasonable, it taught me something very important.

It all started with a pair of Sperry's shoes. Yes, yes I know. But the shoes very cute and I was soo happy cause I found them for cheap but they ended up being too tight. So I returned the shoes today and when I got home, I discovered that Sperry's are not to be worn with socks. If I had known that earlier, I wouldn't have needed to return them because they fit perfectly without socks. I got a bit frustrated and a whole bunch of thoughts started running through my mind. Thoughts like how I would have been so much happier with those shoes, how I could have matched those shoes with some of the shirts that I have. And the more I thought about this, the more upset I got that I had made such an unbelievable choice.

Then it occured to me. In this lifetime, people are always looking for things to make better off. We don't look at what we already have and appreciate that. We have a hunger for wanting more than what we can fit on our plate. Our culture, our civilization, our people have such a high demand of wanting what they can't get that when they get it, they want to go along with it. I'm glad that I have learned a little part of this lesson because even though I would still love to have those shoes, I think what's gone should be forgotten and I should appreciate what I have right now.
:)

Take me away

I can't believe life is hitting me in the face this hard. A couple months ago, I was yearning for the days that I would leave this town but now that it's finally here it just doesn't seem right. Everything is change. Everyone is changing. I've had to deal with some very stressful events the past few months but I think I have finally learned my lesson. Family always comes first.

For a long time I always wondered why my parents never showered me with the love I desired. They fulfilled my desires and wishes but I just felt like something was missing. After what happened in the beginning of July, I am forever thankful to my parents. For everything they have done. I would like to thank them for putting up with me when I have been my horrible self. For finding out everything yet still loving me, perhaps more than ever. My family means the life to me and, I know they prohibit me from a lot of social events, they are worried about my safety. Thank you Mom and Dad. I love you!

End of July and mostly all of August, I spent my time in INDIA. Well...I want to go back!! NOW! I never knew how great it felt to see all of your family. I finally felt complete when I reunited with each and every family member. I got my childhood back. I saw the place where I grew up, where I took my first steps, where I used to play with my dolls. Honestly, seeing all of this brought so many tears. I can't believe I missed out on all the family events while I was here. I loved every second of my time there and wouldn't trade it for the world. I've realized how much my family means to me. I would be no where without them! I cherish the moments that I got with them and they are a memory that will always stay with me. On a fun note, there are monkies...everywhere! My grandma got slapped by one, hehe. Oops. We climbed to the top of a sacred mountain, which took at least 5 hours and then climbed down in the pouring rain. The Taj Mahal was simply beautiful! I couldn't believe my eyes. How wonderful is to see that there is true love out there. Someone who would go through so much trouble to make a grave for his wife. Awh :) The flight back was completely upsetting. A part of me just didn't want to leave. I wanted to stay there and spend more time with everyone. Watch my baby cousin grow up! Eat all of the foods that I could. But I'll be back there soon enough

I leave for college in about a week! Where did all the time go? I can't believe this. I'm finally grown up. No more home cooked meals with Mama. No more silly arguments with my brother and sister. No more of my own room in my parents house. This is so distressing. But change is good. I'm ready to see what life has in store for me. BRING IT ON.